Taking risks

It's not something I'm comfortable with. I'm very much a planner. There needs to be a plan B-Z if "A" doesn't work out. My biggest fear is the unknown or how long I'll be stuck in the unknown. That's probably the reason I don't gamble ( and I don't mean casinos...but to be honest, I probably wouldn't do that either ). People always say that you miss 100% of the chances that you don't take. Tell that to someone who has only been put through constant lessons every time they find the courage to take a leap of faith. They've only been met with disappointment. That would make anyone discouraged from even continuing to try. One thing I've noticed this year is that I've taken a back seat. I've hit so many brick walls when it came to things or people that I pursued. I was always left feeling like nothing was for me and my mind just took a dark turn. Spending time alone might have been a struggle in the beginning. Now, I'm actually thankful for the break of not having to be surrounded by negative influences or negative opinions. For this upcoming year, I just want to try to stop playing it safe. I want to truly go after the things that I want without the fear of being held back. Sometimes, you just have to wing it. The outcome may turn out better than expected.