Releasing Control

I recently celebrated turning 35. I made a journal entry earlier today to recap the events over the last week. It was an epic birthday celebrating with those who matter to me the most. I felt like it was a 'comfortable" birthday. Your 20's are all about parties and clubbing. Your 30's are for dinners. 40's are for taking trips and 50's/60's are for falling in love with new kitchen appliances... so on and so forth. I got two dinners and some lovely pieces of cake.

I don't where this year will take me. I don't know if I'll ever find my person. I don't know what will happen when I move, if I'll ever have the adventure I've been looking for. I'm hopeful. I'm no longer forcing things to fit. From now on, if it's meant to be, it will be. If it's not, it was either a great time or another lesson. I'm not a go with the flow type of person... I've said it before. What I'm realizing now is that having to have everything planned out doesn't leave room for plot twists. Sometimes the plot twists can be blessings in disguise. It's okay to not know how anything is going to pan out. It can be scary, but that's the beauty of the journey. When all the blessings hit you at once, basking in glory is that much sweeter when you don't expect it.